Why is it that...

Telling myself that things could be worse doesn't make me feel better?

I hope...

... that all these questions that fill my head will be answered. One day. Preferably SOON! Or else I'm gonna burst.

The Places We Should Have Gone

Just discovered WongFuProductions on YouTube. This is a cute little video. Watch first, then keep reading.



Brett and I just came back from a 3-day weekend trip to San Diego with a couple of friends. Even though I like spending time with them, I would like to take a trip with him. Just the two of us. And not to Hawaii because we've been there many times (and it's not the same when my family around bugging me). I want to go exploring somewhere and just see something new. This thought came to my head as I was just sitting in the airport, holding his arm. I was a bit nervous to ask him... because I was afraid he would say no and *poof* goes my little daydream. He responded to my question in a calm, soothing tone (probably because he was tired, we both were) "Where would you like to go?" It made me happy, even though I don't know where I want to go yet. And seeing this video made me happy. It makes me thankful that I don't have someone that just brushes off my thoughts and makes me feel like a burden. I know that's not the message the director was trying to get across, but it made me think that I'm so lucky to have places to go to with someone.

Oh, and the director's friend wrote the beautiful music. Check out Songs for Cinema. A-MA-ZING!

Waking up to someone next to you

I had a dream the other night that I didn't have anyone to love in my life. I woke up, opened my eyes to my dark bedroom, and felt absolutely terrified and lonely. For the longest second of my life, I thought that I was laying in bed by myself. Then I turned head and saw Brett sleeping next to me. Good, it was just an awful dream.

I hate how dreams feel so real sometimes.

I'm so lucky that I have someone to wake up to.